Friday, March 10, 2006

Prayer Of Jabez Falls Short In Africa

I found an interesting article, and have posted it for your reading pleasure. It illustrates how our theology of God directly affects how we view the world, and how we interact with it. Note: name of author and source follow article. Thoughts? Opinions?

Bruce Wilkinson, author of the best-selling book The Prayer of Jabez, made a big splash nearly four years ago when he announced his ambitious plan to help children suffering from AIDS in Africa.

Not everything for Wilkinson has gone according to plan, unfortunately. A page one feature in the Dec. 19 The Wall Street Journal captures the sad tale in a nutshell: "In 2002 Bruce Wilkinson, a Georgia preacher whose self-help prayer book had made him a rich man, heard God's call, moved to Africa and announced his intention to save one million children left orphaned by the AIDS epidemic. In October [2005], Wilkinson resigned in a huff from the African charity he founded. He abandoned his plan to house 10,000 children in a facility that was to be an orphanage, bed-and-breakfast, game reserve, Bible college, industrial park and Disneyesque tourist destination in the tiny kingdom of Swaziland. What happened in between is a story of grand hopes and inexperience, divine inspiration and human foibles. …[H]is departure left critics convinced he was just another in a long parade of outsiders who have come to Africa making big promises and quit the continent when local people didn't bend to their will."

It is not my aim to gloat at Wilkinson's failure. To the contrary, I mourn what this means for the millions of African children in crisis who apparently will not benefit from his efforts. I also want to honor Wilkinson's desire to help the least fortunate. It would have been easy for him to take the wealth he gained from his book sales and live a life of personal comfort.

This chain of events, however, should not pass without a moment of theological reflection. The "blessed life" that Wilkinson has helped to promote carries with it a number of assumptions about where God is present in the world, and how God acts in response to the prayers of the faithful.

The Prayer of Jabez is based on a passage out of the book of Chronicles, in which a devoted man named Jabez asks God for a favor: "Oh that you would bless me and enlarge my border, and that your hand might be with me, and that you would keep me from hurt and harm!" The fact that God honors Jabez' prayer and blesses him with great riches indicates to Wilkinson a God-principle. If we in pure heart ask God for a blessing - and do so using the very words that Jabez prayed - then God will bring wondrous gifts into our life. As The Wall Street Journal reports, Wilkinson interprets the wild commercial success of his books (roughly 20 million copies sold combined) as yet another proof of the miraculous power of the Jabez prayer. In other words, it worked for Jabez, it worked for Wilkinson, and now it should work for you. With the fiasco in Africa now behind him - and the full Journal report makes clear that fiasco is the appropriate term - I wonder if Wilkinson has reconsidered his theology.

Maybe because I spent so many years in poor regions of the globe I could never accept the prayer-in-blessing-out approach to faithful living. Straight to the point, I have known too many devoted Christians for whom life did not bring them material blessing. Their children still died of infectious diseases that plagued their village. They could not avoid the violence that dictators and ideologues so often use to cow the powerless. Their territory did not expand because their only path for survival was a daily labor with their hands. Yet they did not lose faith, or cease praying for God's blessing.

As I ponder on their lives, I find a more fitting theology for God's presence and action in the world to be laid out in the book of Hebrews. There we are encouraged to have "faith in things not yet seen," and are offered models of individuals who tried to lead devoted lives that honor God. We read that some of them did receive great material blessings, while others ended up in the dens of lions or stoned due to their principled living. We learn, in other words, that God does hear their prayers and loves them profoundly, but it does not always bring them material riches or expanded territory.

Wilkinson's doctrine in fact implies that social structures are immaterial. An individual reciting the right prayer can transcend an AIDS epidemic in his or her village or escape being bought and sold into slavery (like 27 million people on this planet yet today). Perhaps now that Wilkinson has immersed himself in Africa, he better understands that the curse of poverty is not a spiritual punishment, or an indication of a lack of faith. To bring blessings to the orphans and widows of Africa, a dramatic shift in values - political, economic, and personal - will be required. And that challenge cannot be owned by Africans alone; it falls squarely on the shoulders of us in rich nations, who enjoy such great material "blessings."
Just like the next Bible reader, I could pick out individual passages that seem to suggest that God will give us whatever we desire as long as we ask for it with a pure heart. "You can even move this mountain" with such a prayer, as Jesus teaches his disciples in the gospels. I do not summarily discount these passages, nor do I assume that we should never pray for rain in a time of drought.

But the weight of the biblical message balances heavily toward a prayer life that yields courage, love, and compassion to do the will of God. The expectation of material gain and miraculous blessings may even distract us on that pilgrimage. The passage in Hebrews calls us, based on past heroes of the faith, "to run the race in front of us," confident that devoting our lives to God's work is all the reward we will ever need.
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This article was written by David Batstone, and can be found on the Sojourners website.

Thursday, March 09, 2006

My First Sermon(ette)

I just came back from preaching my first sermon: well, it was a mini-sermon.

No, I didn't preach to our church congregation, but preaching to our church interns and pastor was nerveracking enough...!

I preached on Philippians 1:1-11. I was not nearly as nervous as I thought I would be. This is likely due to prayer and preparation. I'm thankful for friends who prayed for me as I prepared for this task. It also seems true that the more work and preparation we put into a task, the more we learn, and the more comfortable we get "doing" that task.

After my sermon I was critiqued in terms of primarily theological content/message, but also style. My fellow-interns are so gracious. They are so good to me. Our pastor's comment about my sermon was that it was "very serious and got us right to the core of the gospel without wasting any time, and that's good". That sorta made me laugh.

Thank you Jesus. May your Name be lifted, to the glory of the Father.

Stormy

Today was a stormy day. The weather began calm enough in the morning, just a little bit cloudy. But by 10am it was raining hard, and it continued to rain pretty much all day.

In the afternoon it started to snow - huge, thick, wet flakes that didn't stick to the ground.

In the early evening it hailed.

Now, 10pm, it's back to rain. It's windy too.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

My Weekend

Friday evening:
* went to Claudia's for a party. It was a last-minute thing, and even though very few people came, I still had a good time. Damian, a first year student whom I'm getting to know a little, came along. He is engaged to a Brazilian-Japanese girl. Funny, 3rd culture kids are becoming more and more common. Maybe that'll help make me feel less like a fish out of water..!

* surprise news of the night was Terri's engagement. The thing is, I didn't even know she had a boyfriend, and I know her fairly well (or so I thought!!!). I can't believe she kept that she had a boyfriend a secret from her own friends. Seems strangely bizzarre to me. But then again, her story is a bit unusual. Whatever....

* also, Suzannah who just recently came back from her 8 month missions term in El Salvador, was at Claudia's. She came back, and is marrying my good Bolivian buddy David in a few weeks time. It was great seeing her again.

Saturday:
* uneventful day, except for two things. I made decent progress on a book that I'm reading on the church and tradition. Maybe I'll write about this topic one of these days.

* in the evening I went out for a late movie with a couple of buddies. Had a good time, and I enjoyed the movie. But it did remind me why I don't watch movies anymore: I always walk out disturbed and astonished at how desensitized I've become to issues such as profanity, sexuality, and killing. They seem so normal to me. There's no difference between them and eating a slice of toast. That makes me uncomfortable. On the other hand, the movie did have some redeeming qualities, and it was good to see it, as it gives me a pulse of what's happening in our surrounding culture, but still, it disturbs me spiritually. Spending time with friends was good though, after spending the rest of the day cooped up inside my apartment.

Sunday:
* I went to the early morning church service, 7:30am. I love that service. Have been attending it semi-regularly for the past 4 months, and plan to continue doing so.

* for the rest of the day I studied Scripture, Philippians 1:1-11. I'm preaching a 5 minute homily/sermonette on it this Thursday, to the other church interns. I'm quite intimidated, preaching to a bunch of guys who have preached many times before. But they are very gracious, and I think they will be very supportive. On a related note, I'm astonished how immersing myself in Scripture affects me. It lifts me up. It feeds me in "spiritual mysteries" the way few other things do. Praise be!

Friday, March 03, 2006

Today's Plan

7:30am - get up, journal until 8:30

8:30 - breakfast, shower

9:30 - bus to school

10 - research, read

12:30pm - lunch

1 - ministry interview

2:30 - research, read

5:30 - bus home

8 - party @ Claudia's .. details to follow

Better

I'm feeling much better lately. I can't quite put my finger on the reason, because all the things that usually cause me anxiety are still there, minus the anxiety.

I'm feeling more upbeat. Perhaps it's because spring is on the way. Or maybe it's because I'm excited about my summer trip to Europe. Or could it be that after a six month emotional "drought" season things are beginning to normalize?

Earlier today I sat down and had a hot chocolate with Christina: wow, she's so lovely! Then I studied with Annie for awhile. She just may have the most intoxicating smile I know. Finally, I ended the day by talking with Faith on the phone. Oh wait, her smile is equally intoxicating. Hmmmm.

(Incidentally, I did not get much work done today) :-D

All three women are very godly. All three are gems. But alas, all of them are forbidden gems.

Still, I'm feeling better.

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Who Am I? Here Am I!

Tomorrow is Ash Wednesday, bringing upon us my favourite time of the year: Lent, leading to Easter. I didn't grow up observing Lent, but over the past five years it has become the most meaningful time of the year for me. It is a time of repentance and renewal. It is the advent of springtime. Orthodox liturgy points in this direction: The Springtime of Fast has dawned, the flower of repentance has begun to open.

Indeed, as Orthodox archbishop and author Kallistos Ware says: "Repentance - metanoia, 'change of mind' - is not just ashes, but an opening flower." I love the simplicity and profundity of that statement. Lent lasts for 46 days, and culminates on the day of our Lord's Resurrection on Easter Sunday.

Below is an excerpt of archbishop Ware's writings* on Lent:

'Lent has, therefore, a fundamentally baptismal orientation, which we often overlook and which we need to retrieve. The Lenten Fast is an annual opportunity for us to reflect afresh on the centrality of baptism in our Christian experience, and a call for us each to renew our baptismal promise ... '

'It is an invitation to reaffirm, not just through words but through actions, our rootedness in baptism as the foundation of all our Christian life; it is a season of self-exploration during which we become actively conscious of the indwelling presence of Christ and the Holy Spirit that exists 'secretly' or 'mystically' within our hearts from the moment of our baptism.'

'At the same time, Lent is more than that. As well as renewing my own baptismal commitment, I need also to ask myself: what am I personally doing to bring others to faith and baptism in Christ?

... whether we are clergy or laity, each is to see evangelism as her or his direct responsibility. What am I myself doing to preach the gospel 'to all nations'? ... We are to ask ourselves: What have I done since last Easter to communicate this light to others?

'Lent, then, is about baptism and mission. It signifies a reawakening of our baptismal initiation, a revivified missionary dedication. It is to say both: 'who am I?' and 'here am I.' Recalling our identity as baptized Christians, we ask ourselves: who am I? And, responding to Christ's missionary command, we affirm with the prophet (Isaiah 6:8): here am I.'

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Excerpt taken from Archbishop Ware's essay, "Lent and Consumer Society".

Monday, February 27, 2006

Hail, True Body

Last night was my debut in the Evening Service Choir. During Holy Communion we sang a piece by W. A. Mozart, Ave Verum Corpus:

Hail, true body, born of the Virgin Mary, who has truly suffered, and was sacrificed on the cross for mankind, whose side was pierced, whence flowed water and blood. Be for us a foretaste of heaven in the test of death."

It's a great piece. I love the reference to Christ being "for us a foretaste of heaven." I found this especially meaningful while partaking the Eucharist. Indeed, the Lord's Supper points towards a coming banquet with our Lord Jesus Christ.

Sunday, February 26, 2006

God In Everyday Tasks

Menial everyday tasks lead me to worship God.

Sometimes I pray silently while making my bed. Other times I catch myself saying "Lord have Mercy" or "Christ have Mercy," or reciting the Lord's Prayer, while organizing my books, sweeping the floor, or folding laundry. The last few days I've unexpectedly burst into tears while shaving or showering. Today it happened while washing dishes.

When these kind of moments happen, I'm driven to my knees in worship and adoration of God. I find this strange, because the reason that tears flow to begin with, is because of the brokenness I see in my life: loneliness, jealousy, envy, pride, insecurity, and lack of certainty. But instead of focusing on myself when these intense moments of pain come, I'm led to seek comfort from someone else. I'm overwhelmed by something, someone, to look outside myself for a solution. I'm compelled to throw myself at the feet of God and acknowledge his greatness, his majesty, his sovereignty. I'm driven to praise.

Perhaps this is what St. Paul was talking about when he said in Romans 8:26-27:

"Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God."

Friday, February 24, 2006

Rudolf And Jelena

I just emailed my cousin Rudolf in Germany my travel plans for this summer. I hope he will play host to me, at least during my stay in Frankfurt.

I also asked him to send me his sister Jelena's email address. She lives in Berlin, and I hope to hook up with her too.

This is exciting!

Incidentally, I found writing in German very difficult. I often speak Spanish at school, but I rarely speak German.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Deutschland, Ich Komme!

Germany, I'm coming!

I booked my flight to the World Cup in Germany today. Here is my itinerary:

May 31, 8:45am: Vancouver - Montreal
May 31, 5:15pm: Montreal - Frankfurt
Arrive in Frankfurt on June 1, 6:30am.

July 12, 1:15pm: Frankfurt - Toronto
July 12, 5pm: Toronto - Vancouver
Arrive in Vancouver on July 12, 7pm.

I will spend one month in Germany, and 10 days in Italy. Included in my German visit are the following cities: Frankfurt, Berlin, Köln, Kaiserslautern, and a few other historical cities/sites yet to be determined. In Italy, I hope to spend time in Rome, Pompeii, and Assisi.

Next up? Train tickets!

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Get Lost

My super-duper Bolivian friend Claudia shared with me a great way to tell someone off (ie – “get lost”, “take a hike”, “go away”). For the best effect, I'll say it in Spanish (with English tranlsation):

"Buscate un bosque y perdete!"

"Find yourself a forest and get lost!”

I love it. I look forward to using it. I meet at least one person a day whom I’d like to say that to..!

Join The Choir

Two days ago I joined our church Evening Service Choir. Ever since I was a little boy, mom's been telling me that I should sing in a choir (she always tells me I have a good singing voice), and I admit, I love choral music.

I don't like most contemporary church music, and since our church sings a good number of contemporary music, maybe the best way for me to sing songs that speak to me spiritually is by joining a choir. Our choir only sings once a month, and we only have two practises a month, so the level of commitment is not overly strenuous.

Our Evening Choir Director's name is Amber, and she's fabulous, young and very dynamic. We practised two songs: Brother James' Air, and a Latin piece by Mozart.

Our first performance is next Sunday night during Holy Communion. Hold your applause, please. ;)

Monday, February 20, 2006

Lovely Chat

I just finished talking to Alicia. I was sitting on one of the study couches at school and she came up out of nowhere to say hi. She sat down, and we talked for about 30 minutes.

It was a great. I'm happy.

Deliverance: A Prayer

The Psalmist reminds the Israelites of God’s deliverance from the hands of king Pharaoh: “Give ear, O my people, to my teaching; incline your ears to the words of my mouth! I will open my mouth in a parable; I will utter dark sayings from of old, things that we have heard and known, that our fathers have told us. We will not hide them from their children, but tell to the coming generation the glorious deeds of the Lord, and his might, and the wonders that he has done.” (78:1-4)
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Heavenly Father we thank you that you have revealed yourself in history, through prophets and through Holy Scriptures that attest to your faithfulness and your steadfast guidance. We are grateful to you for the examples we have in servants such as Moses and Aaron, who did not harden their hearts towards you, but courageously stood against sin and did what’s right in your eyes.

Thank you for delivering your people, and for the good plans that you have for us, most evident in your Son, our Lord Jesus, whom you sent in order to reconcile us back to you. He showed us how to be truly human, and he paid for it with his own blood, even his life. Father, soften our hearts, so that we can follow your Son Jesus. Give us faith and steadfastness in following you.

So often we think we know better than you. We are proud, and even though we know our ways lead to destruction and despair, yet we still reject your good and righteous ways. Lord have mercy on us, and soften our hearts. May we be more faithful in clinging to you and your great promises.

Lord, in your Mercy, hear our prayer!

We pray for the world, a world that’s full of disaster, hurt, and pain. We think of those who have lost loved ones, family members, or homes in the landslides in the Philippines, or the earthquakes in Pakistan. Grant wisdom in the continued efforts to find survivors, and to feed, clothe, and house the hungry and homeless. We pray especially for your grace and protection upon Christian aid agencies and missionaries in these areas.

We also pray regarding the recent unrest in the Middle East, Indonesia, Pakistan, and Nigeria. May calm heads prevail amidst clashing worldviews and values. Bring healing oh Lord, to the people of the Muslim faith, through your Son Jesus Christ.

And we bring to you the western world, a world that marginalizes faith in a loving God, in favour of self-promotion, self-glorification, and self-improvement. Lord, have mercy on us. Empower us with your Holy Spirit, to love you and our neighbour with all our heart, mind, and soul.

Lord, in your Mercy, hear our prayer!

We pray for your church, still growing, still proclaiming the good news of Jesus Christ. We thank you particularly for our parish, St. John’s, and your steadfast guidance through many seasons, some good, and some painful. We are especially encouraged by the unity of heart and spirit evident earlier this week at the Vestry Meeting. Amidst the many challenges, you continue to strengthen, sustain, and guide us. May this unity bring glory to you, Lord, and may it bring us closer to you and one another in humility and love.

Additionally, we are grateful for the courageous leadership of your servants David, Dan, Neil, and the many others who experience the costs of following you in a very real way. Bless them, and strengthen them by your Word, by your Holy Spirit, and through your people.

Continuing to pray for the Anglican Communion, we direct intercession to you for our bishop, Michael I, and Andrew H, the Canadian Primate. We pray for special guidance and grace upon them both. Draw them to yourself Lord Jesus. We pray that they would not harden their hearts towards the gospel, but that they would embrace the truth of the gospel. Grant the gift of faith, Lord. We ask for wisdom for both of these leaders: wisdom that’s rooted not in the inklings and desires of this world, but wisdom that comes from you, the true fountain of wisdom.

Lord, in your Mercy, hear our prayer!

As we begin a new week, we silently entrust to your loving care the following people you’ve placed on our hearts and minds.

Lord Jesus, we offer ourselves to you. We commit ourselves to you. Fill the deepest longing we have with your love, so that we may be able to reach out to others in your name. May we join the Psalmist in ensuring that “the glorious deeds of the Lord, and his might, and the wonders that he has done” are passed on from generation to generation.

All this we pray by the power of the Holy Spirit, in the name of the risen Lord Jesus Christ, always worshiping, praising, and giving glory to the Father.

Amen.
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Evening Service Prayer at St. John's Shaughnessy Anglican Church, based on Exodus 7:1-24, and Psalm 78:1-4

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Communal Prayer

The past few weeks I've really been blessed by communal prayer.

While my personal prayer life's struggling because of my lack of discipline, praying with friends has been thriving to the point where I often seek out friends to pray with. The past two weeks I've had no less than 6 instances where I had the opportunity to pray with one person or more.

I'm thankful for these prayer warriors God's placed in my life. Yet another manifestation of God's grace poured upon us.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

I Could Get Used To This!

It's sunny (but crisp) today .. again. I think this is 5 straight days of sun!

Valentine

Today it seems appropriate to talk about the real definition of love. It's not your typical definition found on tv, radio, bus, or newspaper ads. It is much more revolutionary, mind-blowing, indeed lifechanging, than anything the world has to offer. Here goes:

"By this we know love, that he laid down his life for us..." (I. John 3:16)

"God is love. In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him. In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us." (I. John 4:8-12)

Conceptually, I know and understand the implications of God's love for us. However, on a day to day basis, I struggle accepting that I'm loved by God and others. As well, I struggle loving others, especially my enemies. Nevertheless, I will keep at it, with God's help.

Lord have mercy. Christ have mercy. Lord have mercy.
Kyrie eleison. Christe eleison. Kyrie eleison.

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Challenges Of Online Journaling

I've decided to change the way I journal.

To this point, I've refrained from using people's names online, choosing instead to give their first and last initials. I've done this primarily to protect people's identity. The internet's a powerful tool that unless treated with caution can compromise trust and care between friends.

At the same time, there's also the issue of gossip. One can write down just about anything about anyone in a private journal, because no other eyes will read it, but in the sphere of the world wide web everything is visible to everyone, providing a ripe environment for gossip. This is not something I want to do!

I want to continue to respect privacy and refrain from gossiping, but I also would like to make the journal more accessible and personal for those who regularly read my thoughts. Using initials seems impersonal and cold.

One suggestion given to me was to include people's first name, while just giving the initials of the last name. Another thought is to use nicknames. Either of these approaches would continue to protect privacy, while making the journal more personal. I think they are worth a try.

I invite your comments. And yes, if my rants amount to what in your mind is gossip, let me know, because that's certainly not my intention. Be warned though. If you accuse me of gossip, I just may end up writing about your complaint on my next journal entry! ;)

Tasting The World

Today was a super duper busy day. I went snowshoeing at Cypress Mountain from 9am until 5pm, then I went to an event at Regent, "Taste of the World", from 6 until 11.

A few words about each, as well as a highlight.

Snowshoeing: we went with our church group Fusion. Although turnout was low, less than 15, those who came had a super time. We went up to the summit of Cypress Mountain. The hike took 3.5 hours in total, lunchbreak included. The weather was sunny and crisp, although at the summit it was windy and cold. As usual, the view at the top was breathtaking. I'm convinced that when God "makes all things new", he will use Vancouver and its glorious surroundings as a blueprint. Thank you Lord for creating a world with such beauty and glory. The heavens indeed declare your mighty works!

Here are some pictures taken at the summit:






Taste of the World: This is one of my favourite annual events at Regent. It's a night when students from all cultures cook food and share it in one gigantic potluck. Afterwards, there's a talent show where representatives from many various cultures give us a glimpse into their culture through art, skit, poetry, or song. This year, the following nations were respresented in one way or another: Malaysia, Bulgaria, Switzerland, Japan, Germany, Great Britain, USA, New Zealand, Korea, Latin America, and Canada.

My contribution was as follows: for Canada, I helped cook pancakes, and I also helped out in a group song of Stompin' Tom Connors' The good ol' hockey game. For Latin America my contribution was mate and I also helped sing a group song La Bamba. I did not make any contribution to the German team. They didn't invite me. Mind you, I didn't offer myself either.

Highlight: The highlight of the night - at least for me - was when the Korean presentation asked for 10 volunteers to come forward, to participate in a tv gameshow of sorts very typical in Korea. I went forward. What we were asked to do was juggle this little puck with tassles on it (how lame .. why not just a ball? And why tassles?). Anyways, I won the competition. The great thing is I beat a Korean in the final. I beat him at his own game. The crowd was cheering and clapping, it was great fun! My reward for winning the competition was a Korean bookmark. Good thing I collect bookmarks...


Saturday, February 11, 2006

Lunch With Packer

I went out for lunch with JIP today! After our morning class we had a Communion Service as usual on Fridays at noon. Then, a whole bunch of us went out for lunch, and lo and behold, Packer was one of them. Even better, I got to sit beside him. Here are three interesting things that happened during our time with him:

1- On our way to the restaurant, I was walking with a friend, while Dr. Packer was walking ahead of us on his own. He slowed down, turned around, and saw us walking together, and then said: "May I walk with you two? I'm dressed as a clergyman, and everyone is looking at me funny."

2- At the lunch table, he turned over to me and said: "Now this is really embarrasing for me, but I admit that I don't know your name. Would you mind giving it to me?" He was genuinely embarrassed that he didn't know my name. I told him what it was, and that I was in one of his classes. He knew that already, but admitted he has a terrible memory. We had a nice conversation afterwards.

3- Finally, another professor who was also present, asked him a philosophical/theological question, upon which Dr. Packer embarked on an in-depth, 20 minute answer. The question was essentially: "Do you think the church was right in dropping realism in favour of nominalism during the time of the enlightenment?" I won't get into details about his response, but I will just say that I was astonished at the amount of wisdom this man has. He summarized 2,000 years of philosophical thought in the matter of 15 minutes, applied it theologically, brought in Scripture, and underlined its significance for us today. Amazing...

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Christian Designations

Today was a good day: it was sunny (yay .. for the 3rd straight day!!!) and cold, and I got a lot of schoolwork done. An interesting assignment I completed entailed filling out a Ministry Profile.

In it I had to answer "Yes" or "No" to the designations below. "Yes" characterizes my religious upbringing, and "No" does not. Here are the categories, and what I picked:

Protestant: Yes
Catholic: No
Orthodox: No
Jewish: No
Non-church: No
Fundamentalistic: No
Charismatic/Pentecostal: No
Pietistic: Yes
Liberal: No
Conservative: Yes
Evangelical: Yes
Anti-Church: No
Legalistic: Yes

A few thoughts about my designations:

* I was surprised at how many categories I said "Yes" to. Essentially I'm a Protestant Pietistic Conservative Legalistic Evangelical.

* The only category I don't like that I had to say "Yes" to was "Legalistic." I don't like that designation, yet I think that it at least partially describes my perception of what the Christian faith was all about as I was growing up. I trust that God is working in my life, sanctifying my legalistic tendencies.

* I was saddened that I could not say "Yes" to "Catholic" and "Orthodox". Somehow, I feel distant from our spiritual forefathers. The Reformation troubles me, because it led to denominationalism. I don't want to be part of a church that detaches and ignores its own history. Detachment is anathema to the incarnation.

* I want to be "Orthodox" because that's the only church that has maintained apostolic links to the early church. Furthermore, I want to be "Catholic" in the sense that the faith I adhere to is the one agreed to by "all Christians at all times and in all places." Finally, I want to be "Evangelical", proclaiming the good news of God in Jesus Christ. I want to be a Catholic Orthodox Evangelical.

I conclude with a prayer for the unity of the church (from the Book of Common Prayer, page 40):

O Lord Jesus Christ, who didst say unto thine Apostles, "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you": Regard not our sins, but the faith of thy Church, and grant unto it that peace and unity which is agreeable to thy will; who livest and reignest with the Father and the Holy Spirit, one God, world without end. Amen.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Recipe For Joy

There's no better recipe for lifting our soul out of the dirt and muck of everyday life than listening to a good dose of JS Bach.

I've been listening to his Mass in B minor the past few days, and I am continually and neverendingly amazed and blessed by the depth of love for God he has, and how this love and devotion shines through his music.

It lifts up my soul and prompts me to join the mountains, ocean, rocks, angels, heavenly hosts, and the rest of creation in worshiping and praising the everlasting Trinity.

Here are the English lyrics* for "Gloria", one of the movements of the Mass:

Glory be to God in the highest, and on earth peace to his people.
We praise you, we bless you, we adore you, we glorify you.
We give you thanks for your great glory.
Lord God, heavenly king, almighty God and Father; only begotten Son of the Lord, Jesus Christ most high: Lord God, Lamb of God, Son of the Father.
Who takest away the sin of the world; have mercy upon us:
For you alone are Holy, you alone are the Lord, you alone are Most High: Jesus Christ
With the Holy Spirit in the glory of God the Father. Amen.
_____

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Relationally-Challenged

Over the past few months I've had to come to terms with the painful realization that the stereotype statement "guys are afraid of commitment" so often attributed to men, is applicable to me also. Yes, it's true. I'm afraid of commiting to a woman.

However, while trying to make sense of this rather devilish reality, I've come to wonder what women's equivalent sin is. I mean after all, both, Adam and Eve sinned. Sin is not something men have exclusive rights to. Surely women also have relational issues.

The answer came to me over the last few days, and it came in a clear and unmistakeable way. Here it is: women have the same commitment problem men do. We just call it something different. We call it "getting cold feet."

The reasons for being so afraid of commitment probably differ between men and women (and that's a whole different story), but still, let's call a spade a spade. Men and women are both afraid of commitment. We are both relationally-challenged.

Therefore, by the powers granted to me by myself, I hereby decree that should a man be accused of being afraid of commitment (especially by a woman), he has every right to defend himself in due and proper manner, in a way that exudes charity and nothing but charity.

Acceptable responses include:

"Listen, honey, your feet look like ice-blocks. May I fill the bathtub with hot water so that you can warm your lovely feet?"

"Brrrrr................it's cold in here. Why are you walking barefoot on the cold floor? Let me turn up the heat."

"You are right, my dear. I am afraid of commitment. Your feet look blue and cold. Would you like me to get some socks for you?"

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Praying All Night

I often complain to my friends that theological studies can be a faith-killer because we learn so much "about" God, and are so tempted to leave it at that and not get to know the living God personally. Well, last night was a welcomed exception. It was a Regent first, "Pray for the World," an all night prayer vigil.

It began at 9pm, with an hour of worship in song. Afterwards, we confessed our sins, wrote them down on small sheets of paper, and nailed them on a cross. After all, how dare we intercede on behalf of a sinful world without first confessing our sins? How can we approach God with the needs of the world unless we ourselves acknowledge our need for Him and place ourselves in a state of grace? What assurance, to know that our wickedness has been dealt with once and for all by our Lord in his death and resurrection!

Then we ripped off all the sheets of paper and went outside in the cold wind and rain, and proceeded to burn all our "sins" into oblivion, the way Almighty God does. It was very powerful.

At 10 we began praying for Regent College and Vancouver. We thanked God for the wonderful work he's done here in the past, present, and for what he will accomplish in the future. We also thanked God for our lovely city, its beautiful surroundings, and its people. We brought before God the complacency of the church, and asked for mercy and grace in reaching out to a city that is engulfed in self-worship, self-improvement, self-obsession. We prayed for the poor as well as the wealthy. We claimed God's promise to guide our every step, and declared our allegiance to seek and discern his will for our city.

From 11 until 12:20am we prayed for the world: Canada, USA, Europe, Middle East, Latin America, Africa, and Asia. We thanked God for such a diverse world, made evident in the multi-cultural presence at school. We prayed for peace and justice. We prayed that God would grow his kingdom here on earth.

From 12:20 to 12:40 we had some much needed refreshments: coffee, tea, bread, chips, popcorn, and cake. I juiced up on caffeine.

Then, for the next 2 hours we divided up into numerous groups and prayed specifically for individual nations: Zambia, Germany, Kenya, and Korea were only a few examples. I joined prayer groups for Indonesia, Malaysia, the Philippines, and Albania.

At 2:45 we sang some more, and then shared the Lord's Supper together. What a blessing, to take in the body and blood of our Lord, assuring us of his grace, assuring us of his love, assuring us of his very presence. We also divided into small groups and prayed for one another.

At 3:30 praying ensued, until 5:30, at which time breakfast was served. However, I left early, at 3:30. I was exhausted, encouraged, tired, excited, overwhelmed, and sobered.

This was surely one of the highlights of my time at Regent so far. I acknowledge the importance of asking hard, academic, conceptual, abstract questions. Our mental faculties are to be used for the glory of God. God can handle intellectualism. However, when they become an end in themselves, we miss the point of doing them in the first place.

I yearn to put to use the things I learn about God. May these things lead to a closer, more intimate knowledge of God. I yearn for closer communion with God, as the Psalmist says in one of my favourite Psalms, 130:5-6:

"I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I hope; my soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen for the morning, more than watchmen for the morning."

Saturday, February 04, 2006

$10 Richer

Today I found $10 in a vest I hadn't worn in 3 months. I bought myself a coffee with the money.

I love it when that happens.

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Qualicum Beach Report

This weekend I spent at Qualicum Beach, on Vancouver Island. I went there with our church Evening Service Committee. It was a short get-away, only 1.5 days, but even so it was good. Here are some pictures from the weekend:

Ferry ride:















Qualicum Beach:















Friendships:

Saturday, January 28, 2006

New Heaven, New Earth

Wait for the Lord, whose day is near.
Wait for the Lord: keep watch, take heart!

Friday, January 27, 2006

In Exile .. Again

My stomach is in knots. I’m often on the verge of tears. I can’t seem to get anything right with AEK.

Over the Christmas break we met twice, only for her to tell me that she does not want to spend time with me, whether it be one-on-one or in a group.

Since then we’ve had two conversations: one by phone, and one in person at school. Both were positive, in fact, very encouraging. At the end of our last talk early last week we discussed getting together this week.

Last weekend before going to Pender Harbour I emailed her and asked her if she wanted to get together for a coffee or dinner sometime this week. Upon my return, I was disappointed to read in her response that she was annoyed that I’d asked her out for dinner. She felt I’d disrespected her boundaries.

I emailed her back early this week, apologizing for being presumptuously hopeful based on our last few conversations. I also told her that going forward I’d no longer be the initiator in our friendship, because frankly, I’m weary of apologizing for reaching out to her.

Back into exile I go.

Maybe my friends are right in telling me I need to move on. One friend said “If God wants you to be together, he’ll orchestrate it. In the meantime, forget about her and move on.” I wonder about that. I admit I’m growing increasingly sceptical of God’s “active work” in our lives. I’m becoming a jaded cynic. Damn it, haven’t I learned enough lessons about love yet?

I miss her very much, especially her steadfastness, loyalty, faithfulness, and acceptance. I miss her friendship, her companionship, her presence. I continue to wonder whether I will ever meet someone else with whom I have so much in common. I still think that breaking up was the right thing to do at the time, but increasingly I feel that the final chapter of our story is yet to be written. I’m not sure what that means.

I feel like a complete, utter, useless failure.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Happy 64th, Mom!

I'm very lucky to have a mother who cares deeply about her family. I'm so proud of her. She sees her role as a supporter, supporting husband, children, and grandchildren to a point that is simply admirable.

I'm humbled by her commitment. She gives of herself to others, even if it's at her own expense, to her own disadvantage.

May I never take for granted the privilege I have had, having been raised in a Christian family, by a godly mother.

Here's a picture of mom, taken late December 2004 (it's a typical 'mom' picture .. smiling, but with her hands full!!):

Heavenly Father, I thank you for giving me a loving and caring mother.

Grant her patience, energy, and strength in her tasks.

Bless her, through Jesus Christ our Lord, let it be so.

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Tories In .. Liberals Out .. Finally!!!

For once, common sense prevailed (albeit just barely) in our national election. I couldn't bear another 4 years of Liberal rule.

Here's how it all turned out:

Conservatives: 124 seats
Liberals: 103 seats
Bloc Quebecois: 51 seats
National Democratic Party: 29 seats

Unfortunately, it's only a minority government. I wonder if we'll do this all over again in two-years-time.... In the meantime, hopefully some positive things can impact this nation for the better.

Lord, bless this nation.
May her leaders seek direction and guidance from you,
for you alone are the source of wisdom.

Rosewoods Report

Seven of us - MLe, MLo, JW, OYS, CM, RC, and I - met late afternoon on Friday, and embarked on a weekend get-away trip to Pender Harbour. We'd planned the weekend as a way of strengthening friendships and getting some good rest early in the semester, before the stress of papers, research, writing, and exams engulf us.

It was indeed a great time of community-building. Nothing brings people together more than "living under one roof."

Here are some highlights from our weekend:

* Food - CM did a phenomenal job with the food. We ate spaghetti, granola (MLo actually made it), Spanish tortillas, brownies, and plenty of fruits. MLo made amazing coffee too.
























* Worship - on Sunday morning we had a wonderful time of worship together. MLe lead the singing, MLo lead the sharing, and I lead prayers. I was amazed by the depth of commitment and faith in our group. What a blessing!











* Canoeing - A few of us went canoeing. I loved the physical exertion to my arms!!! I should take up canoeing.... Furthermore, the scenery was stunning. I found myself praising God as I was rowing through the calm waters of the inlet.





















* Games - We played a lot of games. My favourite was Rook. I've always enjoyed good card games.





















* Mate - JW should be a salesman for yerba mate. He brought his guampa and bombilla, and convinced everyone that drinking mate was not only a great drink, but a great way to build community. Well done JW!!! We'll make a Paraguayan out of you yet...!!!











* Photos - I took over 200 pictures. MLo is a great photographer, so I got many tips on how to take good pics from him. It helps that we live in paradise here, so it's not difficult to find good photo targets!































* Impromptu road-soccer - JW's van broke down on our way to a hike on Sunday, so while stuck waiting for help, we brought out the soccer ball and played in the middle of the road. Sweet!

There were also a few disappointments:

* Van problems - JW was kind enough to drive us up in his van, but unfortunately it broke down twice, and that ended up wasting valuable time. It delayed our arrival on Friday by 4 hours, and it prevented us from going hiking on Sunday.

* It was not a restful weekend. In light of car troubles it was hard to relax. Personalitites were tested, characters stretched.

* Study - I only got in about 30 minutes of reading.

Monday, January 23, 2006

Back From Rosewoods

I'm back from Rosewoods, on Pender Harbour. Had an amazing time of fellowship with friends. God is so good to us.
















Will say more tomorrow.

I'm tired. It's 10:34pm. Going to sleep.

Sunday, January 22, 2006

200

Today's my 200th post. It's been almost a year now since I started journaling.

Friday, January 20, 2006

Retreat-A-Mania

Each of the next 3 weekends I'm going on retreats.

This weekend, 1.20-22, I'm going up the Sunshine Coast to Pender Harbour with my Community Group.

Next weekend, 1.27-29, I'm going to Qualicum Beach with my church's Evening Service Committee.

Finally, the first weekend of February, 2.3-5, I'm heading up to Vernon with the a group of friends I affectionately call F1 Freaks, because of our obsession with Formula 1 motor racing.

Gonna take lots of pics to post here. :)

Thursday, January 19, 2006

God And Doughnuts In America

I read an article today called The Christian Paradox. How a Faithful Nation Gets Jesus Wrong. This article can be found here.


This article articulates in a relatively short format the nature of American Christianity today. I found it very interesting, as it verbalizes many of the sentiments I have towards (against?) the type of Christianity proclaimed by our southern neighbours.* While some of these sentiments are probably justified, I do acknowledge that some of them are sinful. I need to examine my soul, discern where the sin lies, repent, and accept God's refreshing grace.

Still, the article exposes what I believe to be some very serious problems that contemporary American Christianity poses to the church, and for that matter, the world. Here are some thought-provoking quotes from the article:

"Three quarters of Americans believe the Bible teaches that 'God helps those who help themselves.' That is, three out of four Americans believe that this ĂŒber-American idea, a notion at the core of our current infividualist politics and culture, which was in fact uttered by Ben Franklin, actually appears in Holy Scripture."

"America is simultaneously the most professedly Chrsitian of the developed nations and the least Christian in its behaviour."

"Despite the Sixth commandment, we are, of course, the most violent rich nation on earth, with a murder rate four or five times that of our European peers. We have prison populations greater by a factor of six or seven than other rich nations (which would give us plenty of opportunity for visiting the prisoners). Having been told to turn the other cheek, we're the only Western democracy left that executes its citizens, mostly in those states where Christianity is theoretically strongest. Despite Jesus' strong declarations against divorce, our marriages break up at a rate - just over half - that compares poorly with the European Union's average of about four in ten. . . Teenage pregnancy? We're at the top of the charts. Personal self-discipline - like, say, keeping your weight under control? Buying on credit? Running government deficits? Do you need to ask?"

In many American churches, ".. pastors focus relentlessly on you and your individual needs. Their goal is to service consumers - not communities but individuals . . . who aren't tightly bound to any particular denomination or school of thought. The result is often a kind of soft-focus, comfortable, suburban faith".

"A New York Times reporter visiting one booming megachurch outside Phoenix recently found the typical scene: a drive-through latte stand, Krispy Kreme doughnuts at every service, and sermons about 'how to discipline your children, how to reach your professoinal goals, how to invest your money, how to reduce your debt.' On Sundays children played with church-distributed Xboxes, and many congregants had signed up for a twice-weekly aerobics class called Firm Believers."

"Love your neighbour as yourself: although its rhetorical power has been dimmed by repetition, that is a radical notion, perhaps the most radical notion possible. Especially since Jesus, in all his teachings, made it very clear who the neighbour you were supposed to love was: the poor person, the sick person, the naked person, the hungry person. The last shall be made first; turn the other cheek; a rich person aiming for heaven is like a camel trying to walk through the eye of a needle. On and on and on - a call for nothing less than a radical, voluntary, and effective reordering of power relationships, based on the prinicple of love."

"A rich man came to Jesus one day and asked what he should do to get into heaven. Jesus did not say he should invest, spend, and let the benefits trickle down; he said sell what you have, give the money to the poor, and follow me. Few plainer words have been spoken. And yet, for some reason, the Christian Coalition of America - founded in 1989 in order to 'preserve, protect and defend the Judeo-Christian values that made this the greatest country in history' proclaimed last year that its top legislative priority would be 'making permanent President Bush's 2001 federal tax cuts.'

"It's hard to imagine a con much more audacious than making Christ the front man for a program of tax cuts for the rich or war in Iraq. If some modest part of the 85 percent of us who are Christians woke up to that fact, then the world might change.'

He concludes, "..money changers and power brokers will remain ascendant in our 'spiritual' life. Since the days of Constantine, emperors and rich men have sought to co-opt the teachings of Jesus. As in so many areas of our increasingly market-tested lives, the co-opters - the TV men, the politicians, the Christian 'interest groups' - have found a way to make each of us complicit in that travesty, too. They have invited us to subvert the church of Jesus even as we celebrate it. With their help we have made golden calves of oureslves - become a nation of terrified, self-obsessed idols. It works, and it may well keep working for a long time to come. When Americans hunger for selfless love and are fed only love of self, they will remain hungry, and too often hungry people just come back for more of the same."

That concludes my 'highly selective, completely biased', choice of quotations. I looked for some potential quotes that communicated a sense of hope on the author's part, but there just were none. Sorry.
***

* For the record, Canadian Christianity is (arguably) even worse off, but no one notices that because Canada is a small fish in the pond of Christianity. America, however, is a big fish, and big fish make big waves. In other words, the influence America has on the world's perception of Christianity is much much larger than the influence the great white north has.

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Winter Courses: 2006

Here are the courses I'm taking this semester:

1 - History of Christianity II (Tues, Thur 9:30-11am) - whereas last semester we covered the history of the Christian faith from the early church to the reformation, this semester we're going to start with the reformation and continue on to present day Christianity. Here are some of the themes we'll touch on:
* Anglican Reformation (mid 16th Century)
* Catholic Counter Reformation, Catholic Doctrine and Missions (mid 16th century)
* The Puritans
* Protestant Scholasticism, the Englightenment
* German Pietism (1675-1725)
* Awakenings: Britain, Europe (1735-1785, 1785-1830)
* Christianity in America
* The Rise of Protestant Liberalism
* American Evangelicalism (19th Century)
* Catholicism (19th Century)
* The Rise and Fall of Evangelicalism
* The Rise and Fall of Social Gospel Liberalism
* Fundamentalism, Modernism (20th Century)
* Renewal Movements
* Expansions: China, Africa (20th Century)
* Pentecostal Explosion in Latin America (20th Century)
* Christianity in the West (20th Century)

2 - History and Theology of the Anglican Church (Fri 9:30am-12:30pm) - my first course with JIP!!! This course will survey the history of the church in England from the reformation to present day. It will include Evangelical, Anglo-Catholic, and Broad Church (Mainline) perspectives. Here are more specifics:
* Introduction: varieties of Anglican Theology today
* The English Reformation
* The Puritans
* Richard Hooker, Caroline Divines
* Rational Divinity, Revival Theology
* The Oxford Movement: Anglo-Catholicism
* The Broad Church Movement: Modernism
* 20th Century Anglicanism
* Evangelical Anglican Theology

I'm also taking the 2nd portion of Supervised Ministry. Details of this course can be found here under point #3.

Course content of #1 & #2 above overlap each other somewhat, but it will be interesting comparing and contrasting the approaches, viewpoints, and opinions of three professors (History of Christianity II is being co-taught by two professors) on these matters.

I'm looking forward to this semester. It'll be a ride. Hopefully a fun ride.

Lord, may the things I'm learning this semester lead to a deeper love of you.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Ingat!!!

Ingat means "take care" in Tagalog, the national language of the Philippines.

Today I spent time with a dear friend of mine, JR, who came home for Christmas from her missionary stint in the Philippines. We had a great day together.

She and I went to the Philippines together on a missions trip in 2002, and although our time together then was short (3 months), we developed a friendship that will surely last for the remainder of our lives. God has a way of bringing special people into our lives at the right time and place!! Thank you Lord!!

Here's how we spent our day together.

We met for breakfast at 8:30am Filipino time. Translation: 9am. We went for breakfast at Clew's, on Main Street. Afterwards we wento to visit my school. I showed her our classrooms, our chapel, Atrium, library, and bookstore. I'd hoped to introduce her to some of my friends, but none of them were around, and that was disappointing. (She probably thinks I have no friends!!!)

For lunch we visited with some other friends of hers who used to live in Toronto. We took this picture there (incidentally, I broke a crucial Filipino social convention by putting my arm around her .. terrible, terrible):
















Then we went to Metrotown Mall, and walked around. She had to get some last-minute items before she returns to the Philippines tomorrow. I bought her some chcolate, as well as some to take along and give to Ate Bel and the rest of the AHFI team. At the mall, we also stopped for a little tea:
















At 6pm I dropped her off at her niece's place in Surrey. Before we said good-bye, we prayed together. May God grant her JOY and may he protect her as she shares the good news of Jesus Christ in Mindanao.

It was good to see her. INGAT!!!

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Take My Life, And Let It Be

Take my life, and let it be
consecrated, Lord, to thee;
take my moments and my days,
let them flow in ceaseless praise.

Take my hands, and let them move
at the impulse of thy love;
take my feet, and let them be
swift and beautiful for thee.

Take my voice, and let me sing
always, only, for my King;
take my lips, and let them be
filled with messages from thee.

Take my silver and my gold,
not a mite would I withhold;
take my intellect, and use
every power as thou shalt choose.

Take my will and make it thine,
it shall be no longer mine;
take my heart, it is thine own
it shall be thy royal throne.

Take my love; my Lord, I pour
at thy feet its treasure store;
take my self, and I will be
ever, only, all for thee.

_____

Words by Frances Ridley Havergal, 1874.

Sunny?

Can it be? Was it just my imagination or did the sun shine today?

Actually, it was not just my imagination. The sun came out, breaking the chain of 27 straight days of rain. My gosh, had the sun not come out we would have been set to break a new record of consecutive days of rainfall tomorrow, or, said differently, consecutive days without sunshine.

Welcome sun!!!

Friday, January 13, 2006

Bad Milk, Fire Hydrants, And Shampoo

One of the things that drives me bonkers about living in Vancouver is consumer friendships. If I received a $1 for every time a friend jammed out on a planned activity because of "unforseen circumstances", "double-booking" or "bad planning" or whatever, I'd earn enough to buy a place in Monaco or perhaps on the Italian Rivera. It's ridiculous.

Tonight I'd planned to spend time with a couple of guys, but one by one they cancelled out and our plans went down the drain like milk gone bad.

On the other hand, I'm planning a weekend get-away with our community group next weekend, and the level of non-commitment is astonishing. People are all talk, until it comes to action. Once action is required, the excuses come out like water out of a fire-hydrant.

I'm convinced that the root cause of this is utilitarianism and consumerism. I had a conversation with someone earlier this week who told me that post-modernity has reduced humanity to "consuming animals." We are consumers in every sense of the word: socially, physically, economically, and for goodness' sake, even spiritually. We make decisions not based on what is truthful and right, but on what's most practical and economical.

I think he was right. Everything we do nowadays is a consumer decision, based on what will benefit us most. We participate in whichever events will benefit us most, and worse, benefits are not even weighed in terms of people (ie - who do I want to spend time with?), but in terms of entertainment (ie - what will we do? will it be fun?) We put about as much thought and commitment into our friendships as we put into buying shampoo. In other words, not much.

It's frustrating. It's pathetic, and it's bloody shallow.

Sneeze

I'm still not well, been feeling sick for over 10 days now. Strange. Fever's gone. Headache's gone. Cough's almost gone. Throat feels better.

But I still have quite the killer cold.

Monday, January 09, 2006

My Mind's Made Up

I made up my mind over a month ago as to who I was going to vote for in our national election on January 23rd, but after listening to the national debate on the radio just now, I'm even more convinced of my decision.

Stephen Harper's the man. He's got character, integrity, and purpose. Fiscally he's responsible, while socially he's the only man amongst a bunch of liberal ideologue boys who speak of tolerance but have no idea what that word means.

Paul Martin's a liar, opportunist, and he's morally bankrupt. He looks at what people want on any given day and tries to give them that. That's not leadership. That's cowardice.

Jack Layton's the funniest of the lot. I appreciate some of his views on "helping working people", but unfortunately being "anti-corporation" and "anti-USA" doesn't solve the problems he claims to be able to solve.

I won't even waste my time and give the other contestants air-time.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Temporary Madness

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."
_____

Taken from the movie Captain Correll's Mandolin. Those who know me well know how much I dislike Hollywood, and I admit that it was a struggle for me to bring myself to quote something from a movie here. But this quote is (in my view) brilliant, regardless of its source.

For too long I've deceived myself by thinking that love is that "temporary madness", "breathlessness", "excitement", and "passion" referred to above. All along I've been looking for a feeling, when I should've been looking to make a decision.

Thanks for the quote and conversation, FL.

Lord have mercy.
Christ have mercy.
Lord have mercy.

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Down But Not Out

Last night was a horrible night. I've been feeling under the weather for a few days now, but last night I finally succumbed to illness. Consequently I slept maybe 2 hours, if that much. The rest of the night I spent tossing and turning.

Sore throat, couldn't swallow anything, phlegm stuck in my throat.
Cough.
Killer headache. My head felt like was going to explode.
Sneeze.
Stuffed sinus.
Watery eyes.
Sweating. Fever came upon me like an evil spirit.

Today I spent pretty much all day in bed. Didn't even have the energy to go out for a 5 minute walk.

I'm sick of tea. I'm sick of ginger. I'm sick of this gigantic lump in my throat.

My one highlight of the day was taking a nice long bath. Oh and yes, surprisingly, I did get a lot of reading done.

Hopefully tomorrow'll be a better day.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Unannounced Visits Are The Best

I know in our Canadian culture unannounced visits are frowned upon, but I absolutely love them. I love it when someone takes a risk and drops by my place without prior warning. This happened yesterday, when my friend ML dropped by.

What more, she dropped by after 10pm. I mean, I could've been in bed by then, yet she took the chance to drop-in. Kudos to you, ML! We had a great time catching up, eating chocolate, and at the end I brought out the good-ol-Pfefferminzkuchen that are always so well received (especially by her!).

She's going back to Tokyo this weekend, where she continues to build her nest. Going to miss her. Gone are the kick-the-yellow-pages days.

Anyways, here are a few pics we took last night.

ML's happy to get the first bite:





































Wait a minute, why doesn't Cub get a bite!?!?















Oh yeah, before I forget! Mom, can I have some more cookies? ML took them all.... ;)

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Al-Watan

Al-Watan means "The Homeland" in Urdu, the language spoken in Pakistan.

It's also the name of one of my favourite restaurants in Vancouver, located at Fraser and 45th. It's a small "hole in the wall", but the food is amazing, cheap, and the owner/manager/waiter/cashier (all the same person) is a super guy.

































Today I went there for lunch with James:















Oh and before I forget, their tea is amazing too. It's called the "Al-Watan Tea", and costs $1. Can you believe it? $1!!!! Next semester I'll have to go there and park myself for an afternoon and drink tea and study.

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Sick

I'm starting to get sick: sore throat and headache primarily. I think the busyness of the past few months is finally catching up to me. Solution:

* no coffee
* no cold drinks
* advil
* herbal teas
* hot water, lemon, and honey
* sleep

I'll give it 3 days. If the above recipe fails, I'll have to solve it the way they used to solve it in the olden days: rum or vodka. It's been a long time since I've reached into the liquor cabinet for some hard stuff.

Simplicity And Purity

"A man is raised up from the earth by two wings - simplicity and purity. There must be simplicity in his intention and purity in his desires. Simplicity leads to God, purity embraces and enjoys Him."

I love that last sentence: "Simplicity leads to God, purity embraces and enjoys Him."

Those are the words of Thomas Ă  Kempis (1379 - 1471), in his book "The Imitation of Christ." Second only to the Bible as a source of religious instruction and Christian devotion, this is a true treasure of the church. I wish I'd have discovered and read it sooner.

Anyways, simplicity and purity are two characteristics of being a follower of Jesus that I want to explore further. The more I read the gospels, the more I see Jesus' call upon us as one of simple devotion to Him, avoiding the many trappings that our culture tries to seduce us with. Furthermore, purity is also an ongoing call that Jesus calls us to, lest we be distracted and fall by the wayside.

Therefore, I do not see these as unatainable "ideals", but rather, true marks of disciples of Jesus, that require constant grace from God upon us, his weak children, and our constant dependence upon Him, and yes, very hard work.

So there, those are my goals for this next year. Indeed, I expect these two marks to lead me along the straight and narrow path for the rest of my life.

Thomas Ă  Kempis*:

"If your heart be free from ill-ordered affection, no good deed will be difficult for you. If you aim at and seek after nothing but the pleasure of God and the welfare of your neighbour, you will enjoy freedom within."

"If your heart were right, then every created thing would be a mirror of life for you and a book of holy teaching, for there is no creature so small and worthless that it does not show forth the goodness of God. If inwardly you were good and pure, you would see all things clearly and understand them rightly, for a pure heart penetrates to heaven and hell, and as a man is within, so he judges what is without. If there be joy in the world, the pure of heart certainly possess it; and if there be anguish and affliction anywhere, an evil conscience knows it too well."

As iron cast into fire loses its rust and becomes glowing white, so he who turns completely to God is stripped of his sluggishness and changed into a new man. When a man begins to grow lax, he fears a little toil and welcomes external comfort but when he begins perfectly to conquer himself and to walk manfully in the ways of God, then he thinks those things less difficult which he thought so hard before."

* Translated by Aloysius Croft and Harold Bolton. Mineola, New York: Dover, 2003. Page 32.

Monday, January 02, 2006

NYE @ Cub's

I hosted a New Year's Eve (NYE) party last night. It was lots of fun. I'd invited almost 50 people, knowing that in a flakey place like Vancouver, I'd be very lucky if half of them showed up. The party mentality in this city is as follows: "I'll go to the party that seems most promising in terms of fun (ie - food, music, entertainment, people), and in order to keep my options open I will not commit to any of the parties until as late as possible, in order to maximize the accuracy and certitude of my selection." Pathetic. But, I admit, I've done it too, so I'm included in the pathetic. All this to say that my calculation was correct: when inviting people to a party, expect at the most 50% turnout. My goodness, even the voting turnout in Canada is better than party attendance. Pathetic. Or, perhaps more accurately, apathetic.

Ok. Now that my bitter rant is over, I can get on with the business of telling what happened, because a lot did happen, a lot of fun was had, and people did come: over 20 of them. We had fun, laughed, listened to good music, drank wine, shared "best of the year," and had a toast to meeting next year's challenges with God's help. Here is how December 31st, 2005 unfolded:

10:20am - picked up CM who kindly helped with party prep: setup, food, decorations.

6pm - RS arrives to help with setup. We order pizza for dinner, prepare music playlist for the evening.

Welcome:
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Deco:
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8-9:30pm - Cub's freaking out, because by 9:30, only about 7 people had arrived. I was devastated, wondering how my friends could "betray" me on a night like tonight. I was thinking "I guess I know who my true friends are."

Friends (aka "Formula 1 Freaks"):
F1 Freaks

9:30-11pm - all of a sudden, within about 45 minutes, 15 people showed up. I was relieved. Truly. Conversation increased, the music got louder, and more wine bottles were opened. I was really thankful, because everyone brought something to share: wine, Bailey's, chocolates, cheesecake, pop, etc...

I love this photo:
Strike a pose

IL & DC:
IL & DC

C &AJ L:
A lovely couple

MB & Cub (I love my new shirt .. hehe):
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11:20pm - Playlist master of the night RS "unleashes" relentless waves of Tiesto and Oakenfold mixes upon the masses. Does it get any better? I think not. Thanks R, job well done!

Mixmaster RS:
So sexy it hurts

JW & AJL:
JW & AJL

11:40pm - we asked everyone to fill up their glass with wine, and take a cherry. Then we formed a circle, and one by one we shared either a) what was special to us this past year, b) what we want to focus on this upcoming year, or c) both, a and b. (Thanks CM for suggesting this activity .. it went over very well, although I forgot to explain to everyone the significance of the cherry .. btw .. what is the significance of the cherry?) I was really blessed by some of the things that were said: people were thankful for their relationships (friends, spouses), work, and travels; and people were looking for a new year of less work and more time to enjoy life (although one person was looking forward to finding a job!), being closer to God and friends, and healing. My vision for the future is simplicity and purity.

11:50pm - we had a toast. Music was pumping, and we gave everyone NYE party toys, like masks, hats, and I even put on a blue wig. Everyone was standing up, mingling, and it looked like no one was marginalized or neglected, which often times happens at parties. It looked like people were having a lot of fun.

Sideshot, LD, RS, D, & BL:
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Cub and EW wearing a party wig:
Mili Vanili are back?

ET & DH:
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12am, January 1, 2006 - smiles all around. After a coundown, people wished one another a happy new year, proposing more toasts. Noise. Music. Laughter. Hugs. Unfortunately, no kisses. ;)

12:10am - the thing I liked most about the evening was that after midnight, the momentum of the party did not disappear. In fact, for the next hour or so, interaction was great, people were getting to know one another, mingling, celebrating the new year , enjoying some good techno. (Well, I was enjoying the techno. Not sure everyone else was, but hey this was my party!!)

Group photo (some people missing):
Group Pic

1:20am - the exodus begins: people start going home.

2am - party ended.

3am - Cub went to bed.

Highlights of the party:

* people came!
* Cherry toast - a time of sharing
* A girl named B
* Decorations
* Paul Oakenfold and Tiesto
* A glass of Santa Rita Chardonnay
* Party toys
* Conversation with CL
* Cameras
* My new UCB shirt
* Friendships

Lord Jesus, thank you for your presence among us last night.
We give you thanks, praise, and glory!

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Prost!!! Salud!!! Cheers!!!

Froehliches Neues Jahr, und Gottes reichsten Segen an Familie und Freunde!!!

Feliz Año Nuevo, y las bendiciones mås ricas de Dios a familia y amigos!!!

Happy New Year, and God's richest blessings upon family and friends!!!