I look forward to spending Christmas together with Daniela. I just wish we lived in the city so we could enjoy each other's company...
I'm somewhat surprised at my indifference towards staying here and not going "home" to BC for Christmas. Family is important, but family can also be the source of great stress, and at this point I feel that family contributes more alienation than belonging.
The source of this feeling of alienation that I have is definitely related to my feelings towards my mother. It's hard to talk about it, it hurts. How could I be so at odds with her? How could thoughts about her generate so much heaviness of heart?
I don't feel respected.
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